It must be in the weather today that I am feeling lonely. The gloom of this cloudy autumn afternoon makes me feel like going home early.
I woke up late, have not eaten breakfast, forgot to bring an umbrella so went back home that cause me 5 seconds late to catch the 8:38 train.
Reasons not to feel good today just keep on piling up.
I just so hate this feeling.
Yesterday, I saw something in the church that reminds me of God's assurance of a better future. I didn't asked for a sign, but the first thing that crossed my mind upon seeing those is God assuring me of a wonderful future.
But why is this assurance being overcome by the emptiness I am feeling now. I just don't know.
I hope these feeling of loneliness, emptiness and fright be gone soon.
Lord, turn this sorrow into joy.
PS: I wrote this post at the office while taking my call of nature. I just can't fight this feeling I need to write it away at this very moment.