It is Valentine's week again, and as usual, I am dateless again, rather still.
Yesterday, the priest on his sermon talks about the relationship of a son-in-law (which happens to be St. Peter) and his mother-in-law. The love of a mother to her son is the topic of the sermon. Of being in the state wherein she would have to realize her son is ready to be on his own, and start building his own family. He said, mothers should let go of their children.
That was nothing to do with the romantic love, but somehow I realize, i have to let go also. To let go of my feeelings for this special girl in my life that had been my inspiration for nearly a decade now. She was never been mine (that's what I know). But she always has a special place in my heart. Unfortunately, our beautiful love story never happened in reality, but still I hang on. Wishing someday she will break-up with her boyfriend and choose me over him.
I had let her go many times, but thoughts of her still comes back. I don't know. Is really a way of God telling me "be patient my child"? Or is is just plain stupidity. I don't know, all I know is I will never had a Valentine's date or any sort of date until I had let her go off my chest. I have to move on.
