Eulogy

Last night in the news, the father of the young actor who died in a car crash told how his son was - a loving, good son.

Now I wonder, when it would be my time to pass, what will people say about me. Will my family say "He's a good boy. He's loving. He's nice."? Will my friend consider me their best friend? I just wonder what I was to them.

I wonder how I had lived my life in the sight of everyone. How was I as a brother, or as a son, or as a friend? I wonder, what will the people hear on my eulogy. Moreover, will there be people attending it?

I don't know. What I do know is that I lived, am living and will live my life the way I know I should be.

PS: I am not wishing for my death soon. I don't want to die yet. Just the thought of it freaks me out. This was just a sudden thought in my mind.

The Day is Coming

This is my prayer for tonight: That the day will come when I finally meet a partner that will love me back. The day when I will no longer settle for just what was left, rather for what I am worth. The day when I will no longer be sleeping with a heavy heart but with but a smile in my face and a spirit full of hope and of joy.

I pray for a partner that will understand me, that will lift me up, that will cheer me up. A partner that will make me feel good about myself. Of whom is seeing the good in me rather the flaws I have. A partner that I love and loves me back.

I am deleting all the past hurts. I am deleting everything that will remind me of how I was unlovable. I am deleting everything that reminds me how crazy I had been.

From now on, I will be living my life in joy, in hope, in anticipation of the love that is to come - my future wife.

The day is coming. It will.
I hope. I believe. I pray.